I'm listening to the Backstreet Boys new album Unbreakable, its amazing.
Today I didn't do a lot. Talked to peoples, worked on some bookings. It was Halloween, my friend Jessi's dad Robert Cox (the man) handed out some candy at their house, I was around while that happened, then I went and hung out with my little brother.
Tomorrow, i'm going to Wild Country in Collinsville IL, which is like a country music dance club thats on TV, i think, thats what I was told, I have heard of it. My friend Matt invited me, he's going with some lady and I guess some of her friends, I don't know who she is or they are, so it should be cool, I enjoy hanging out with Matt. Every friend has to be there through the break through :) haha
Sometimes this music thing is just weird, I guess would be the feeling. Its like a really good weird. Like when I go to peoples myspace pages and see my videos or songs on their pages, just is crazy, but I am so glad people understand and are with me now, its something i appreciate so much. Touring is something thats amazing.
Just with knowing all these people, I get to make so many friends, and I love it.
I just love life.
I'll let you know how tomorrow goes :)
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I'm not who I was
To me one thing that I truly believe the whole religion thing is about is about Forgiveness and Acceptance. I feel thats whats stressed throughout what I have read in the bible. I used to have a problem with forgiveness, trust, and loving and being open, who doesn't though? I mean no one wants to be hurt, and after you've been hurt once, its easy to shelter your feelings and thoughts and be stubborn. I was that way. I'm just being honest with you, you may have been hurt once , twice, maybe three times, but its not over, you're going to get hurt a whole lot more, you're going to lose a lot.
Accepting the way things are, is one thing thats truly just brought my happiness in life down so much. But I changed that, how did I change it? Its not something you work at. For all of you that say "oh i'm working on changing myself and my way" or "I am figuring myself out" You are lying to yourself, stop being so selfish. Stop stalling, there is never a clear way for anything in life. You know what needs changed, you know how to act the right way, so do it, accept you made ignorant decisions, accept someone may have broken your trust intentionally, someone may have trusted you and you broke it, you may have done something you knew you shouldn't have, someone may have done something they knew they shouldn't have. Take it as it is. Stuff will suck. It will hurt. You have nothing to figure out, nothing to change but your own selfishness. But don't get me wrong, you do need to be selfish to get the best out of life for yourself. But there is a difference being *Selfish and Considerate. and being *Selfish and Inconsiderate. You have to love yourself and think good things of yourself if you want to gain the best in life, but you can take other peoples feelings and lives into consideration that are you friends and people in and around your life.
Forgiveness is something that people, or well I, myself in general have trouble doing. I hate the fact someone would be so selfish to take the step into having a great time for the moment and then apologize for something they chose to do. Never apologize for something you decide to do. Accept the facts you hurt someone, Don't apologize, if you care about that person and are hurt by the fact you hurt them, change things, prove to them you are worthy of still being in their life. Its hard to just have something happen to you and just drop it and give up. Never give up is something people always say, but then again, if you don't, you can't forgive, cause in order to give in and forgive , you have to give up your fight with what you feel is right. I've always heard is it better to Forgive or Forget?
I believe its better and easier to Forget. I let others live with the burden, regret and shame of what they did. I don't want it. But you forgive to mend their end. Forgiveness to me is a sign of weakness. Accepting it and moving on to better things is different than forgiving. Forgiving is like saying "its okay you did whatever you did, it wasn't that big of a deal it just upset me but not anymore" accepting and moving on to better things is, is like "okay, you messed up, you were selfish, and made a stupid decision , to only better your situation in the current time not for your future, but I care enough about you to stick with you and continue as a part of each others lives."
Thats just me I guess.
Accepting the way things are, is one thing thats truly just brought my happiness in life down so much. But I changed that, how did I change it? Its not something you work at. For all of you that say "oh i'm working on changing myself and my way" or "I am figuring myself out" You are lying to yourself, stop being so selfish. Stop stalling, there is never a clear way for anything in life. You know what needs changed, you know how to act the right way, so do it, accept you made ignorant decisions, accept someone may have broken your trust intentionally, someone may have trusted you and you broke it, you may have done something you knew you shouldn't have, someone may have done something they knew they shouldn't have. Take it as it is. Stuff will suck. It will hurt. You have nothing to figure out, nothing to change but your own selfishness. But don't get me wrong, you do need to be selfish to get the best out of life for yourself. But there is a difference being *Selfish and Considerate. and being *Selfish and Inconsiderate. You have to love yourself and think good things of yourself if you want to gain the best in life, but you can take other peoples feelings and lives into consideration that are you friends and people in and around your life.
Forgiveness is something that people, or well I, myself in general have trouble doing. I hate the fact someone would be so selfish to take the step into having a great time for the moment and then apologize for something they chose to do. Never apologize for something you decide to do. Accept the facts you hurt someone, Don't apologize, if you care about that person and are hurt by the fact you hurt them, change things, prove to them you are worthy of still being in their life. Its hard to just have something happen to you and just drop it and give up. Never give up is something people always say, but then again, if you don't, you can't forgive, cause in order to give in and forgive , you have to give up your fight with what you feel is right. I've always heard is it better to Forgive or Forget?
I believe its better and easier to Forget. I let others live with the burden, regret and shame of what they did. I don't want it. But you forgive to mend their end. Forgiveness to me is a sign of weakness. Accepting it and moving on to better things is different than forgiving. Forgiving is like saying "its okay you did whatever you did, it wasn't that big of a deal it just upset me but not anymore" accepting and moving on to better things is, is like "okay, you messed up, you were selfish, and made a stupid decision , to only better your situation in the current time not for your future, but I care enough about you to stick with you and continue as a part of each others lives."
Thats just me I guess.
Monday, October 29, 2007
The Lesson in Life is not playing the Role of the Let Down.
So this is a new thing i'm doing, atleast daily hopefully.
Right now, the hills re-run is playing behind me on the tv, i'm thinking about my upcoming tour to Texas. And how sweet its going to be, just to see that state again, feel alive, drive a lot, play some shows and meet some amazing people. Thats one thing I love so much about what i do , is all the amazing people i get the chance to say i have met.
As for who will be touring with me, I am not for sure. I'm excited to be spending the Christmas holiday with my grandparents in Donna TX. A lot of people asked me why I won't be touring to New York like i said. But will I reschedule? Yes i will, that will be shortly after the texas tour in January. Also Florida, You're in Feb. I have a lot coming up that I'm excited for. Radio stations, New CDs, New Recordings, Management, Label news and Touring plans with a few good acts.
I just love touring, please if you see i'm coming to your town or near it and you want to kick it, please never hesitate to message me or hit me up on AIM, i'm usually down for anything, I'm a human too, I like to have fun haha.
I love to see my friends like Joshua Aaron, Jonnie Gentry, and Go Away Orange Pogo Stick opening up and just taking control of their creativeness and talents. I love all my friends and my family. Sometimes I get too caught up in my "music" life, and don't focus on my "normal/personal" life. But I guess its a good thing because 90% of the time single people think about other people they could date and how they could increase those opportunities. And the people that have a bf/gf spend their time with them.
So i guess i'm not missing out on much right? Unless I had a girlfriend, then i'd be missing out on being with her, which I would never put myself in the situation for me to miss out on things like that. But I don't have one, so all is good :)
The End
Right now, the hills re-run is playing behind me on the tv, i'm thinking about my upcoming tour to Texas. And how sweet its going to be, just to see that state again, feel alive, drive a lot, play some shows and meet some amazing people. Thats one thing I love so much about what i do , is all the amazing people i get the chance to say i have met.
As for who will be touring with me, I am not for sure. I'm excited to be spending the Christmas holiday with my grandparents in Donna TX. A lot of people asked me why I won't be touring to New York like i said. But will I reschedule? Yes i will, that will be shortly after the texas tour in January. Also Florida, You're in Feb. I have a lot coming up that I'm excited for. Radio stations, New CDs, New Recordings, Management, Label news and Touring plans with a few good acts.
I just love touring, please if you see i'm coming to your town or near it and you want to kick it, please never hesitate to message me or hit me up on AIM, i'm usually down for anything, I'm a human too, I like to have fun haha.
I love to see my friends like Joshua Aaron, Jonnie Gentry, and Go Away Orange Pogo Stick opening up and just taking control of their creativeness and talents. I love all my friends and my family. Sometimes I get too caught up in my "music" life, and don't focus on my "normal/personal" life. But I guess its a good thing because 90% of the time single people think about other people they could date and how they could increase those opportunities. And the people that have a bf/gf spend their time with them.
So i guess i'm not missing out on much right? Unless I had a girlfriend, then i'd be missing out on being with her, which I would never put myself in the situation for me to miss out on things like that. But I don't have one, so all is good :)
The End
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